THEN TO NOW Written May 22, 2020

Then to now...

THEN - I knew I enjoyed talking and joking with people and how it always gave me an energy boost.

NOW - I have to get my energy boosts from my garden and my dog. But boy, do I miss those casual interactions!

THEN - There were some things I really wanted to stop doing, but hadn’t quite worked out how I would or could withdraw from them.

NOW - Some of it just stopped, not by me but by the Covid nightmare. Others are finally coming to a close. Yehaw! My load is lightening!

THEN - Funny how my mind only went as far back as just before the Covid lockdown.  It’s like my memory has shortened somehow. Power being, this nasty virus.

NOW - I am struggling to tap into creativity, into hedonism, into healthy self-care. Now I work hard outside and work hard finalizing Hospice business. In fact, I really enjoy doing hard physical tasks. Hospice? Meh. But that ends soon.

But pursuit of pure pleasure is elusive now, I am on some sort of pause just like the rest of the world. I need some kind of jumpstart to remove my self-imposed restrictions on making art that is NOT the garden - cuz let’s face it - the garden has been my palette and canvas for the last few months, no question.